Oxygen therapy

There will come a time that our body will not follow our mind.

Yesterday I work overtime just to help my friends in preparing the patient for Dra. Calixto, that was my first time to go home so late and haven’t taken an afternoon nap.
When I wake up the next day I was really sleepy my body doesn’t even want to move and my head is really heavy. When I arrived at the clinic I can’t hide my real mood. I AM SLEEPY. I really can’t focus too much my eyes wants to close.

As the hours had pass I suddenly felt pain in my head. A severe pain which I couldn’t tolerate that’s why I’ve decided to take a short nap in one of the empty room. So funny to think that they are actually looking for me and they are kinda curious to where I am.
When they found me our doctor ask me of what is happening to me, so I answered him that I’m having a really bad headache. I was then shock and almost disagree when he told me that I should be placed on an oxygen therapy. I was kind of surprise and I really can’t believe it because it was my first time to be placed in such facility.
Well our doctor is really that good in placing me in oxygen because after an hour my headache is getting better.

After receiving the treatment I told my friend that I have to go home and take a rest so I left the clinic early. The next day I sleep the whole day hmm I really enjoy the feeling.

a little kid's suffering

I felt bad about the kid that has been brought to our clinic. He is so wasted and almost thin for his built. The parents tell us that this kid hasn’t been eating much for five days and has a fever for four days. He rushed down to our clinic to give some cure but after several hours he doesn’t change a little bit. We almost give him 3L of plain lactated ringer solution and one 500ml of D5lr, as we observe the kid he doesn’t give an equal amount of output. For almost 5 hours his urine output is only less than 100 for a 3.5L solution infused. The doctor orders to give plasil, buscopan and gentamycin to give relief as much as possible. The doctor says that there is something happening to his kidney that’s why they have to transfer him immediately to a secondary hospital facility.

It’s not right to blame his parents but maybe this is just my opinion as for my self. I just can’t explain or don’t get the point for them to wait five days before going to a health institution. Two days with no appetite and fever? Why aren’t they so trouble about it? Why don’t they rush him immediately? Why did they wait for so long? I just don’t understand. If they are suffering from financial purposes it is still unreasonable. They don’t even think that if that illness would get worse they would be paying lots for it.
That kid is really suffering. But he does know what to do.

Sick

Such a fine day to wake up early though my night is not that good cause I cry.

Another day for me to create my life and to work hard to achieve my goals. I wake up early around 5:30 am to eat my first meal of the day and to fix my self before going to the clinic. I was in a hurry that time because it’s kinda late. When I arrive the clinic I was kind of shock when there is already a patient waiting. As I enter the clinic I found out that this patient has been in hypertensive attack this morning, and that this patient is somewhat has a family relation with the head doctor. Xoxo

At this time I’m still not in the mood to talk because I’m so worried about a lump in my right neck, actually I suspected it to be my inflamed lymph node. When I ask the doctor to palpate it and ask him what is it and what to do about it. He tells me that it is really an inflamed node which is due to some URTI. He advised me to take some antibiotics and observe the changes.

I don’t know how I would take good care of my self so I won’t get any illness. Maybe I’m so preoccupied with things just to keep me busy and not think things that actually make my feeling unstable.

That’s how my day goes……

Pain

Everyday that passes by I notice my self being independent.
Actually I can’t explain the feeling of being so protective for my self y not trusting people around me especially with does guys which surrounds me. Maybe because I’m hurt and still hurting, pain that is still in my mind and heart that can’t be healed by any means. I though I’ve already over it and I can move on a normal life as before but why should I feel this way! So confused and frustrated of something I don’t know.

The past hunts me in my everyday life though I may notice it. I know it is somewhere in me hiding and waiting for right time to outburst the feeling.

I want to cry but I’m asking my self the reason why? I’m really broken and can’t find the reason to fix my self. Cause every time I do it just makes me broken worst than before.

First Solo ECG

As the day of training goes by we learn different things and try to master it for future use.
I think I’m really that lucky because Dr. Ortiga teaches me and Hanna regarding ECG placement and how to palpate the ICS. Though we know the basic knowledge of ECG we aren’t able to apply it or trained ourselves.
He is really nice I often want to take my duty with him cause for me it feels no pressure. Haha
One day when me and Jelai are on duty a patient needs to undergo ECG so Dr. Ortiga ask us who knows how to do it. Well Jelai said that she already done it once to the cleaner of the clinic then I was shock when Dr. Ortiga suddenly says that “Kath you’ve done it right? So you can do it now?” without second thought I just answer him “yes doctor”. I prepare the patient and start the procedure at that very moment I just concentrate my self to what I am doing. Now when I started the machine it gives me a flat line I thought that something is wrong on the placement of the rods but Dr. Ortiga teach me that if it happens it just need an alcohol on that part. Well after 30 minutes I already finish the exam and remove the rods to the patient. But before that I let Dr. Ortiga to see my strip if it is fine. I’m very glad when I heard him that I do well and my placement is good.

When all the patients are gone and Dr. Ortiga has no more patient for consultation, He comes out of his cubicle and talk to us saying that I’m on the lead of all my colleague cause now I can do ECG on my own. He also told Jelai that next time she would be the one to perform it but with my supervision, my confidence was really uplift by that words I really cant imagine that he would say that in front of my friend. And what really makes me strive to do my best performance is that Dr. Ortiga gives me his trust in handling ER patient for ECG. Xoxo

That’s it he give me a great day I hope I could do more to help them.

First Clinic

“New place to start your new life… New personality to encounter.. And lastly new fellows to meet and make friends…”

The start of my volunteer service at the clinic begun I was kind of nervous and confused I don’t know where to start and what to do. I’m so glad that one of my friends accompanies me that day. I requested her to stay for a whole day duty so that I won’t get stuck.
At first I thought that James (one of the senior volunteer) is so unapproachable he seems to be not that friendly, but as the day goes he suddenly changed to a bubbly guy so happy to be with and always gives some jokes he really has that sense of humor in him.

My first duty in that hospital seems to go very well though there are so many patients because it is the scheduled day for prenatal check-up and some ultrasound. I really get along with the doctors on duty especially Dr. Ortiga which is really nice and smart. He teaches us new knowledge and he also gives us some recall of the diseases we’ve encountered, the right intervention to apply in the patient in emergency situation.

It was a good experience, though I often get tired of it. When I return home I always just want to sleep and lay immediately in my bed hahaha…

I remember last Saturday I was about to have a day-off but my friend got sick and ask me to exchange her duty. I agreed to her so even I’m on my day off, I hurry up and fix my things and rush immediately in the clinic. Not knowing that I’ll be on a straight duty for 26 hours because there would be a patient who will deliver her baby. And we are assigned to monitor and take care of her.
For 26 hours my eyes are open wide but I know my body and soul seems to separate due to over fatigue. Xoxo
Making my self that dedicated my mom gets mad at me because she’s really worried about me and she almost tells me to leave that clinic, She is mad because the working hours is over the maximum time of the paid work in which we are not paid for that service. Well actually I lied to her because I told her that my duty would be from 2pm to 7am the next day but the truth is that my duty starts from 2pm-4pm the next day.
When I return home that day I was really exhausted and my soul is really out of my body.

Doing my best I know someday it will be paid off…

Unpredictable Life

“Life is so unpredictable.. At first you’re out in the line not knowing where to go, then just a glimpse you’ll just wake up that you are making the path of your life.”

Finally after a long wait we’ve found a place for us to work as volunteer. I’m so happy when one of my colleague left a message for us telling that she has a job in a polyclinic which they are currently in need for some nurses. It was a rainy night when I receive the message, the message say “we only need 2 nurse position available first text message will be entertained”. At that time I’m so unfortunate that I don’t have any load to reply the message. Even its raining I ran out of the house just to find a store for me to load up, but I’m really unfortunate because all the stores are already closed. I return to our house still thinking on how I would reply the message. In just a minute I remember that maybe my Papa had a load so I rush in his room, luckily he really has a load so I immediately text my friend.

The next day we decided to come personally in the clinic. We are really nervous not knowing what to do or what to say. The head doctor interviews us simultaneously, after that interview the doctor said that we could start the duty the next day.
After hearing that news we are overjoyed. Finally we found a better place to use our time.

Nurse Shortage

I thought everything would be easy, I thought I could find a place that suits me…
But then I’m still here waiting and waiting for a great break. Why is it that they say there is a brain drain and there are needs of nurses in the hospital but in reality we can’t find one which can accept us for work? We tried everything, offered our self as volunteers but still no hospital accepts us. We already passed the NLE but yet we can’t find a hospital were we can work.

Most of the nursing graduate and NLE passers are now working in the call center agency which they can earn money for there daily living while others became sales clerks in mall or companies. Only few nurses are still wasting there precious time waiting for hospital opening either for hiring or volunteer.. So sad but it’s the reality!!

So they shouldn’t say that there are shortage of nurses because there are many nurses but because they didn’t give them proper training and opportunity that’s the time nurses losses there passion in looking for hospital.. As for my experience I’ve waited so much, there’s a lot of wasted time but still I couldn’t do anything just to wait.

In my mind I should be patient in everything wait for the right time to come but then there’s a point that I wish I could do something especially when I’m really bored.
Luckily we found a place to trained our selves even it is not a paid work, I know some day I may use everything that I will learn from this polyclinic to a hospital based client care.

New Life

The start of new life has begun when I’ve already graduated my Bachelor of Nursing course. But as they say as the student life ends there are new responsibilities and trials we should face.

I was happy that all my goals as of this moment are successful. I’ve taken the Nurses Licensure Exam and I passed it. But there are so many examinations to get through before taking that NLE, I’m really nervous and almost exhausted. All the pressure is in my head and sometimes I cannot concentrate that much thinking the negative outcome of that exam.

I really thank God for all the graces bestowed upon me, I know that he’s always with me taking care and giving or leading me the path of life that’s best for me. Now I’m here standing in the world of professionals facing the new challenges and difficulties. Learning new life through experience waiting for me to grow more with compassion and with professional attitude in taking care of others life.